Quit Blog

Not feeling great today and the cigs don't "taste" good.

I set my quit date. A bit apprehensive as my job situation is stressful to say the least. I will succeed though!

I think it is going pretty well. I am on the patch program and take the Wellbutrin when I remember. Not great about it. But trying. Having a bit of throat pain and post nasal drip, but I am telling myself that I am healing, and it is worth it for the ultimate better health I will have. I am having less chest pains and reflux is dying down. So positives. Every day I make a little mental list of the positives and that helps. I have tried to quit before and it has not happened, but I am determined to not beat myself up about past failure and focus instead on current success. This is hard and I would be lying if I said I was not worried about stepping down my patches. But, I am taking it one minute at a time. I hope to soon be able to take it one day at a time and ultimately not have to think about it quite so much.

Had a few set backs but am still committed to giving up these cigs. I had set a quit day of 3/1 and it has come and gone. although I did make it for about 4 hours that day. Did get my medicine situation worked out and am on Wellbutrin since 3/1 and getting to where I can't even finish a whole cig anymore. Facing the truth that I am an addict has led me to work on why I smoke. Like any other addict I have come to realize that I am using cigs and have used cigs since I was 16 to mask a lot of emotional hurts. I am slowly allowing these hurts to surface and deal with them without turning to a cig for comfort. My faith in God and his healing powers to help set me free from this bondage are sustaining me through this process.

I wanted to quit because my husband was changing so much to better our life together, my daughter is an asthmatic, I want to have another child, I want to be healthy, and i want to be there for my grandchildren! I have been smoking from the age of 8. I don't know how I did it. It was so much easier to quit than I thought it would be. I lost my voice, got super sick and had a awful cough, but I have gotten through 25 days! Actually the last few days have been some of the worst. I am dealing with being away from my husband for 95 more days...I saw him for four days and then he was gone again. Military life is hard to adjust to and I feel like i am nuts for quitting smoking at the same time, but at the same time it feels like a fresh start.

Really Fresh because I don't smell like an ashtray anymore!